born this gay

I just can’t understand people in general sometimes. When you’re there for someone 24/7 for over a year… and then one day they just come up to you and tell you shit…  try to explain you your mistakes what you did in the freaking past… Why always bring up the past? i can’t help that, I can’t make it better anymore! Everybody can make mistakes… but why bring them up? Everybody changes a lot.. sometimes you do things and you regret it in the next minute.. or you know how you should have done that instead of how you did it…

oh my godness… how love can make someone so blind. I fucking forgave you everything, I tried to help you, I was there for you every second of every day. I was next to you even when you had a boyfriend, even when you told me that you’re in love with someone else but i’m still special for you. I was next to you even though there was 1600km between us. I tried to make you feel special.. and what did I get? What I got is me sitting a dark room alone and crying because you made me feel crap, feel like I’m not worth anything.

How the hell did I deserve this? How? You’re the first person that made me feel like this and I won’t let it happen again! Nobody is gonna destroy me again. I will try to be wiser and look at things better. I won’t be blinded by your words that weren’t even true. 

that’s it. thanks. 

you realise that all the shit you did for someone was not worth it because she still makes you feel crap…